Crazy night

Last night was crazy! as I was lifting weights around 11pm singing Bruno Mars' songs with all the right emotions I suddenly heard lovers quarreling in our neighborhood. Thinking it was just my sister being corny and watching these emo telenovelas on TV, I initially ignored the dramatic conversations until I heard screams and the sound of falling furniture! As far as i remember, I was able to hear clearly that there were gunshots.. Damn, I immediately went to see my brother and he told it might just be another house party that our neighbor is usually fond of. But it was totally different, after the gunshots there was silence until I peeked into one of our windows and saw police cars all over the place. Fuck I was planning to review Internal Medicine reading assignments pa naman! And so the ever anxious and scared muppet me was so paranoid that I turned the radio on and switched the TV to a radio show channel...And there confirmed a man was shot and SOCO went to the place to do an investigation. Fuck I only had 4 hours of sleep lang tuloy because of them. Grabe lang Im still mortified and trembling..fuck anyway till my next blog have to accomplish big group discussions for next week. Another hell week approaching -_-

Here it is...

Its been 3 years since my blog post and from those three years a lot of heartbreaks, hardships, and victories happened that helped me change for the better. I was not able to update my blog since then and I was so preoccupied with cooking, photography, and Language classes, and yeah Medical school who keeps on fucking my life...

Finally,the list for scheduled physical examination prior to medical clerkship has been posted. I am quite anxious yet optimistic and determined that I will be able to pull up my grades in Radiology, Gynecology, and Psychiatry this time to be able to qualify for clerkship. What I am actually afraid of is the final examinations since it would be 20% of our final grades in our yearly subjects. Passing the final examinations will not be as easy as other people will think of. It would require you to read samplexes way beyond 2007, read handouts from June, and at least finish the book from the cover until the last few pages of geekery. In short, one has to master all the yearly subjects in one hell week.

As death March is coming, I am now pressured to start browsing these crappy pile of handouts and samplexes that have cost me 20 burger diets and had transformed my room into becoming a storage room. Oh boy! medical school is really like a roller coaster ride! I just hope I have a special someone I can share my rants and problems with but there she goes with another man... I guess almost all long distance relationships do not last that long. Enough of the drama oh well anyway all I needed this time is the inspiration and determination that I will be able to surpass and qualify for clerkship! go go go elmo!

Another week to bum around

I was surprised to recieve text messages tonight regarding the suspension of classes for 10 days. We are unlucky that the Medicine building will be closed and that classes for all other Colleges will not be affected for some unknown reason, which I guess is another H1N1 case yet to hit the campus. It is weird that even the Central Student Council has yet to know the reason behind this. Its not a good evening after all since I just arrived at my pad and has been reading diligently during the weekend and then this fucking virus came. I cannot imagine how terrible our sked will be for the coming weeks! does this mean I have to say goodbye to my ever anticipated vacation abroad during our sembreak?woah!!! I have an assumption that these foreign student freaks and the filamerican boogers were the culprits. Wondering what I can do for 10 days, I made a partial list of must DO's:

- watch the most anticipated movie transformers II!and harry potter!
- sleep, eat, and watch tv series greys anatomy
- play bowling with my bestfriend:)
- sleep, eat, and watch gossip girl
- set an appointment with my stupid dentist;x
- sleep, eat, and do some movie marathon
- pigout with my most loved subsec mates!
- waste time downloading all the med files for second year...
- sleep, eat , and watch heroes
- go out on a date with M, E, B, or R...and let him pay the bill;D
- attend the photowalk tours and studio shoots with my photography buddies
- then why not do advance reading for pharmacology, surgery, among others. ehem ehem

random thoughts...

I just recieved a sad text message from a friend bidding her bitter goodbyes to us. As I read her text message, I recall her sweet smiles, mannerisms, haunting voice, and her uniqueness. She was a good subsection leader(one of the most unselfish people I have met), my long lost sister,my movie buddy(watching cheesy pinoy movies), and one of my best pigging out partners. I am missing her so much! It was a heartbreaking moment when I said my last goodbye to her after we met up with her the other day. I just imagined that life is too unfair for her as she was also recently diagnosed of having ovarian cysts and needs urgent operation abroad. I was eager to hug her that moment and was about to cry like a toddler but felt it would only make her much sad and so I just made jokes over her condition. “So who’s the daddy?”, I told her, and she was there picking on me as usual and that sweet smile made my day again. These were the last few moments I enjoyed with her but still Im wishing her comeback next year. I wish that she would have a successful operation abroad and welcome a healthy friend next year. I will miss her...

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I am writing this blog post in my gloomy pad as I am back to the stressful life of a medical student who chose to kill his social life, substitute his drinking sessions to cups of coffee, miss episodes of his favorite TV series and watch over instructional videos and powerpoint presentations instead, among others. If only these walls of my room could talk it will be sharing with my sentiments and share my deepest secrets. He was a witness when I cried over Sam when we broke up and got myself insane, saw me jumping with joy on how I manage to survive my first year in med school, and heard my everyday rants when I was having family problem issues. If only these walls could talk...

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I saw my crush today he still looks hot and boastful as usual which made it more interesting;) However, I wonder why I always see him as a loner and how he proudly wears this ugly thick moustache that gave him this mafia look;p I wish I could have him but I think he is quite sure of his preference. I also noticed he has been working on his body he looked pumped, dirty, and ready to dive his way into me haha whatever I just feel weird today..infatuation I suppose..


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use your admirers wisely

teaser...

I know this blog post will offend someone who is in the situation as to admiring someone who apparently just wants him for something. Sorry but I just want to share my personal experiences with them, I might inspire someone from this blog post, or make someone realize how stupid he is, or even make someones life easier I suppose...I am an ordinary guy who just got lucky to have admirers. I am not bragging about it I am even surprised I have a few admirers despite of my flaws. Sometimes I would want to turn them down but I know the feeling of being rejected and cursed. I was in the same situation a few years before during my premed years. I have been hurt too by a lot of people too and then when they realize its already late. Sometimes you get into situations you cannot handle and then you either let them be or the only thing to do is escape right? You might not understand but really I don't want to be like the bad guys so I make my admirers stay and know me well. I make friends with them and even reward them and let them feel a spark of hope. One must just master the art of making someone feel he would be having you soon but not too much that it will make them feel comfortable. You must let them realize that theres a long way to go and that the fastest sperm wins(competition) before they lay their hands on you. Admirers can help you more in some ways a real boyfriend cannot do for you, that is why staying single is a good choice and investment. You get to be with different men without any attachment and issues. You have time for yourself and you do not sacrifice anything and then regret it afterward. Being single also gives you an opportunity to meet other people and then realize you are meeting better guys than your ex-boyfriends. Basically, it gives you more time to collect and select without feeling any guilt and enjoy your independence! Yoohoo! Learn to commit to yourself and not just to anyone or anything. You don't want to be a slave to every man dont you? Your goal here is not to put people off or even make it seem that you incapable of having a commitment. I have been playing this game with perfection lately, you need to stir the pot, excite interest, and lure your admirers and other people with the possibility of having you. Watch them as they pursue you and you become the master bwahaha ...to be continued P.S. violent reactions are welcome

Bye Bye Photography

-Three to four weeks left before our first day of class as second years-
I already arranged my sisters old books and handouts. As i see it, every year it gets thicker and complicated. Yoohoo! Good thing I took medical technology as my premed course so hopefully I will have less time reviewing microbiology(w/ mycology & virology), parasitology, and clinical pathology. Also, this summer I have been reviewing for the boards reading again the flagellates, amoebas, viruses, and the likes. However, I wonder if I can handle the stress of reviewing for my boards and med school at the same time since our board exams will be on September.

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My parents told me to bid goodbye to my camera as soon as our class starts (and focus on med school) which means no more fucking good times with my new photographer friends and photowalk/roadtrip buddies. Anyway, two months of taking photography classes and spending hours doing shoots have been productive and fun. Surely it will not be my last time to venture into photography, if I have long weekend holidays during class days still I will be giving ample time taking photos. The sad part is I am limited usually to just take photos during lunchouts with friends and birthdays and say no to days/weeks of travel, hiking, and roadtripping.

3 years left before MD

weee!I passed my first year in med school!Today is the happiest moment of my boring life!Thank you Lord for everything:) second year here I come!